*long sigh...................................................... Yep! that is how I start this post. It has been very tough and a roller coaster for me, for my mum and for everybody at home. *long sigh again... awww I do not know again what to say. I am so tired? emotionally and physically.. my system is down.. hahha... I have diarrhea for almost 4 days now, I know I should see my doctor but how would I if problems keep coming... But hey I did manage to be there during our revalida until yesterday. Unfortunately, I just cannot cope with it anymore, I was in and out of the Loo last night for about 3 - 5 times, oh man.. hilo na talaga ako after that!Instead matulog, deretso paren sa PC, continued reading articles for the debate but then talagang wala na so jumped to bed and zZzzZZzzz(knocked down!).. 6.30am - Woke up when I heard a continuous knock and my name calling, it's my youngest brother telling me our brother is holding a gun.. I ran down as quick as I can and went straight to our garage at the back. There I saw my brother holding a gun pointing at his right temple. What is going on? I cannot believe my brother committing suicide. Suicide--- the topic discussed in our Ethics class which means destruction of one's own life and this is what my brother is trying to do... a Destructive way... Why would he dare terminate life given to him for nothing? and for others who committed suicide? There might be 3 reasons cited by Plato but this is life isnt? Even if its cruel, we have to deal with it because God gave us the chance to be here for he knows we are strong enough to surpass all challenges, and the fact he gave us family to be our inspiration.. Reminds us that no matter what, we do not have the rights to terminate our life. There are people who have only 6 months or 2 years to live whether they like it or not, those who are terminally ill. But what can they do? PRAY is the only thing they could.. Talking to God... At these terrible situations they dont have the choice but to refuse any treatment to end there suffering and for their family not to bear the pain they see in the person. Euthanasia is sometimes the choice of these people.Euthanasia which is really a hard decision to make especially when you know you have to for there are no more chances that our beloved one will live longer. Yes, Technologies are there but we are not eligible to force the person to live long with these life support machines. Only God can give and terminates life of one...For Witholding life support which was reported by Mr. Jornales & Ms. Cabanero, as for this there is nothing we could do for a patient when we know its helpless. Lets say yes we can put him into life support machines but that's wrong as we are prolonging a life needlessly. Not forever the family can afford to have the patient on a life support. And worse, it would be painful for them to see the patient suffering... A machine is needed if the person is rest assured that will live after these medications given. No physician, family member nor nurses can prolong one's life forcefully. The only thing we could give them is the dignity.....
I just hope my brother can realize how special he is to be chosen by God and be here. Whatever the situations he goes through I really hope he'll understand and besides Fate is not by chance but your choice. Life is precious, whether you like it or not this is life... Learn and do your best to deal with it.. Go with the flow as they say...
As for me, Im still there hanging on hoping I will get through. kahit kabilaan probs, ka2yanin ko toh.. kahi pa makalbo pa ulit..huh? makalbo n nmn? fine! ok lang im still pretty naman eh. hahaha... Im going insane.. effects of dehydration???...
There are still problems left unsorted.. So Lev, hang on! you still have a week nalang then you can rest from school and bawas na ang pressure and stress kahit papano... ANyways, thank God auntie mhai can come home. Sana God can grant my pray, mahuli ang Chona na yun for all the harsh she done to us...
To Ms. Mariael,
Im sorry I wasnt able to come to you class knina. Hirap pala magkadiarrhea hahaha.. i thought makukuha ko toh sa drinking water lang. sayang di tuloy ako nakasali sa debate! Given topic to me was interesting! Anyways, thank you for being cool! Hope to see you next year. Good Luck with your new baby :-).. muuuuah!
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